Mike: 'But I'm Not Looking for a Relationship...'
I’m not looking for a relationship. I’ve been in and out of “serious” relationships over the last decade, which you can read about in my intro. I blame this on the movies and music I grew up on that made torturing your soul for love seem romantic.
“People worry about kids playing with guns, or watching violent videos…Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery and loss,” Rob Gordon says in my favorite movie “High Fidelity.”
So, for now, I’ve chosen bachelorhood. I’ve tasted the committed life several times, and yes, I was committed. I’ve never cheated on a girlfriend, although the famous line, “We were on a break,” from Ross on “Friends” may bare some relevance to my life. I’m not afraid of commitment, I’m just curious about all life has to offer.
That being said, Promo Girl No. 2 is definitely making me reevaluate things.
We met at the Promo Girls’ New Years Eve Party. Our conversation lasted five minutes, but our whatever-this-is has lasted longer than any other I’ve had since I moved back to Corpus Christi, newly single, seven months ago.
Two weeks later I posted a ridiculous bulletin/survey on my Myspace: “Which Victoria Secret Angel Are You?” (If I were a Victoria Secret Angel, I’d be “Gisele Bundchen…because you are nice, trendy, and like to have fun.”) An email came from Promo Girl No. 2 in response to my bulletin: “You’re so funny.” Like with original Promo Girl, she was out of my league, and I had to play it cool.
Promo Girl No. 2 was attending my old university back in my hometown, about 45 minutes away.
“Maybe I’ll make a special trip out there,” I emailed. “I miss my favorite hometown restaurant. Maybe I could fit you in while I’m down.”
“Sure, let me know when you can fit me into your schedule,” she replied.
A week later, I posted a Myspace bulletin promoting a screening of “Dawn of the Dead” (the original) at a local mall. It was the ideal date for a nerd like me. Plus, last time I took a girl to a George A. Romero (director of Dawn of the Dead) event, the relationship lasted 3 years.
The only reply was from Promo Girl No. 2: “Cool! Zombie movies are my favorite.” This is where the stories of the two Promo Girls differ.
Sure, she was inviting herself to the movie just as original Promo Girl had, but Promo Girl No. 2 swore she was a nerd in high school, and she currently had a collection of zombie movies, whereas original Promo Girl liked movies like “Jackass” and she had never heard of the “Evil Dead” series. Promo Girl No. 2 actually had things in common with, of all people, me.
“You should come to the screening,” I said. “You can hold my hand during the scary parts, although I'll most likely be squeezing yours first.” Yes, I love zombie movies, but I’m extremely scared of zombies.
“I want to go for sure! You can hold my hand Mike. I won’t let the scary wary zombie wombies get you!” Cute. The screening wasn’t for another month, I had to see her sooner.
“Sounds like a date, but it definitely won’t be our first,” I said. “We're hanging out before then because your first impression can't be me getting scared of zombies.”
Super Bowl Sunday came before the movie screening along with the official Promo Girls’ Super Bowl Party. Promo Girl No. 2 hung around my table most of the time I was there.
“Let’s hang out after the game,” I said.
“I have to drive home tonight,” she replied. Home was almost an hour away.
“It’ll just be for a little while,” I said. We had to get over that first date hurdle. Sure, I can be charming via email, but package those words with these eyes, and game over. I had to hang out with her in person. She agreed.
One of the benefits of living in a beach town is that there’s always a free, after-hours date right on the bayfront. We forgot about our responsibilities and talked for a couple of hours as we walked by the beach. We shared the kind of kisses a man earns by giving a girl his jacket to protect her from the cool breeze coming off the gulf. I wasn’t another guy buying her a drink at the bar because she was hot, I was genuinely interested in her.
Last time I hung out with Promo Girl No. 2 I said, “Wow…you realize it’s been 4 months since we met?” But, I’m not looking for a relationship, right?











Comments
Tyra I am watching your show on why black men are now dating outside there race.
I have met you in person.You are very unique sister and I have seen your growth on the show. I thank your for your fresh perspectives.
I live in the high desert. I am a successful real estate broker, a brother who can articulate, and has his own views.
I come from a family thats as diverse as the united nations. My grandfather was Latin and Jamaican, my grand mother black and Irish, my father's dad was french,black and Indian, my grand mother on his side black american.
Loves knows no bounds, I am a light skinned brother, who is attracted to sisters first and the colors of the world second.
Yet I find black women tend to want the bad boy. More reject a normal down to earth brother, or they go towards the Denzel,Tyrece looking brother.
The average brother like me has to compete with the movie version of what a black man looks like.
When I was young I was the bad boy, women loved me, black,white,latin oe asian.
Now as I enter into middle age other raises of women look and say I want some one who is stable strong and loving.
I went to a social gathering, all the 20 something sisters came to meet me. Yet the 30 and above sisters barely made eye contact.
The latin women all spoke and the asian women sent me drinks.
So you tell me who a brother going to meet.
When I drive my old explorer sisters above 20, won't even wave. While the rest of the world will.
When I am in my jag where a little black sleek cloths they will speak.
Its not the standards its the attitude that keeps sisters from finding a good man.
Half the sisters in the movies are from the carribean. The models on the hair boxes are often not black american sisters.
I love my black american sisters. No i did not use the term african american because we are more then just people from one culture.
Stay strong Tyra stay sweet. I will see you at the next BET awards, or perhaps at vibes award show. Sincerely
E. W.
Posted by: E. W. | June 20, 2008 5:58 PM
I'm looking forward to Promo girl No.3!! Keep me updated please!!
Posted by: Shannon | April 29, 2008 9:48 PM
wow...thanks for all the comments folks.
Elizabeth - you'll probably never believe it...you know better.
DD & Ashley-as always, thanks for the encouraging comments.
Todd-Can I still be a sage if I had to look up the definition? It was in the last few pages of a Larry McMurty book I just finished today. Thanks...I smilled with pride.
Frank-If you're who I think you are, no need to live vicariously.
Thanks again for all the comments. Keep em coming.
Posted by: mike | April 28, 2008 7:43 PM
Is Promo Girl 2 the one I think it is? If so.....well done, sir. If I was in your presence I'd slow clap and stand up for you. I'm jealous and pissed and happy that I may be able to live through you if you're the guy who does things and tells your friends about it.
Posted by: Frank | April 28, 2008 5:12 PM
Aww, Mike, that's great! Sometimes, when you least expect it, you find what you had stopped looking for! Just take your time, be your charming self, and don't be afraid to tell her how you feel! girls love that mushy stuff! HAHA Good luck! And if it doesn't work out, my sister is still single! HAHA
Posted by: Ashley | April 28, 2008 12:00 PM
Life happens when we are making plans. You allowed yourself to open up to a beautiful person that you connected with. So whatever type of relationship comes out of it be it intimate or just wonderful friends, it's all possible because you alllowed life to just happen. I hope all is well with you in love.
Posted by: Samiyyah | April 28, 2008 8:02 AM
Sage
Posted by: Todd | April 26, 2008 6:45 AM
Very beautifully written.
Posted by: DD | April 25, 2008 12:32 AM
A REAL relationship? Not just a series of hookups or random make-out sessions? From a self-proclaimed ladies man? From a man who'd rather channel the tortured soul of any number of John Cusack characters than actually settle down and be happy? This is like Big Foot or the Loch Ness Monster. I'll believe it when I see it.
Posted by: Elizabeth | April 24, 2008 12:06 PM