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I use to be best friends with this girl in my school, and we did everything together! But after about 3 years, I started to not feel as good in the friendship we began to bicker and she started to hang out more with her best friend from grammar school. About two months after her birthday, I kept trying to tell her I wanted to talk but she never would listen! So I sent her an e-mail telling her that I felt like our friendship wasn't as strong. She basically said that she would be my friend, but not my best friend, and I felt really hurt. I then sent her a message that I admit did say some pretty mean things, and told her I didn't feel appreciated and I couldn't believe she didn't want to be my best friend. After a few days of not talking to each other I told her I was sorry and we were both being stupid. She basically said she couldn't handle my emotions and that it was over. But that wasn't god enough! She decided to turn all of my friend against me and they started to make fun of me behind my back! I even went to a counsler in school to talk with her and I kept saying I was sorry, but the hateful words and drawings of me continued! We were in 10th grade and they were acting like they were 10! They'd draw pictures of me being fat, and start rumors of what a bad person I was! It took me weeks to recover, and I still have trust issues! I finally found a few new friends, but I still see her in school all the time. On top of that, a family member of her's just died and I don't know what to do! I just wish she would forgive me, when I forgave her and was the bigger person. I guess it was just time for us both to move on.

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I have bean friendz with her for a year and we started being best friendz and calling each other sisters a month later after meeting.i used to go over her house everyday but i dont any more , her mom used to love me now she doesnt b/c i lied to my aunt . how stupid ? and then our second year at this school and being BESTFRIENDS, out of no where this new girl showz up and takes my spot . so i'm like idont care . we can all be friendz . but she told my so called "bf" she didnt want her talkin to me cuz i was to popular. so she distanced her self from me a min . and then im like so wat . then were tight again , her new home girl tell her and our otha friend gossip bout me then they all just stop they have there own click . so u know wat everybody else loves me so forget em . they aint gone make me or brake me . i love yall in im out !

hi lady tyra....i also like your show very much.but please help me out with this.i was chating with my girl friend on the internet and decide to use another id to chat her to see whether she truly love me.when i did that...i saw she truly love me.but when i told her that i was the one who tested her with that..she told me she was confused..but later she got angry with what i did.....i really want to find a good and reasonable solution to it.....because i truly love her..i have extended this problem far to your programme..please help me out.
thank you

hello Tyra,
I just wanted to say i luv your show girl. but back to the best friend subject to when i was 16 my older brother started to date one of my friends and me and her got close and my brother and her ended up having a baby and a couple of months after my nephew was born my brother got arrested and i had taken up the part of raising my nephew and i saw him like everyday and we bonded and me and my brothers baby's momma got to be best friends and and as i was graduating high school i thought i was pregnant by my boyfriend but turned out it was a false alarm thank god. but right after that me and him ended breakin up. and a couple of days later i found out that my brothers baby's momma had slept with him and so i told her she wasnt my friend and didnt talk to her for like 3 months but my brother kept on datin while log story short they broke up after a while and she started useing drugs and her and my ex got back together then she started cheatin on him with my brother again then she became pregnant with her second kid and doesnt know if its my brothers or our ex's, but thankfully my brother is going to sign the borth certificate it doesnt matter if its not his im just glad my brother is going to be a man and take care of his kids, but anyways me and this girl are not freinds anymore but i do have to deal with her

my best friend gets mad when ever i hang out with any of my other friends! so... i told her off ! and she some how turned all of my friends against me and now i feel like putting a gun to my head and pulling the trigger plz help!!!!!! i have never felt so stupid! online help is the only way to go now and im really sad plus my parents got devorsed this year so my ex bffl made everything worse! she wants everyone to feel sorry for her cause her cusin died this year! i felt really deppressed this year because my grandma died this year she was the only person who ever loved me! ='( online help is the only way or els i might comit sueside

Holding the world above my head Overwhelmed with indecision
I write to you this letter from me Despite this huge collision

My life has been thrown from one wall to the next Unsure of where to land
I’m still to reach my happy beginning Without the helping hand

I’m in search to find the blimp of a life To escape the rut of my past
Yet the past is my everything, holding me back, distracting my every ambition

Once I have realized what I’m to do, It feels to late for me to pursue
Broke with no money and my dignity spared to I scream for help once again

The one chance I had I blew with flying colors Due to depression spun with my anxiety
Seventy thousand dollars handed to a now legal adult in replace of my mommy

Distracted by my boyfriend with a new amphetamines addiction Leaving me to stand as he pleased
No one to run to I drop each tear into my bucket of dead dreams

Every holiday alone for the first time on my own I grew to hate my life
Yet I’ve always known this isn’t me Yet to see the light

Dropped out of school four credits to go Resenting the cap and gown
I refused to close this chapter of life Which I started next to my mom

Selfish of me, yes I know, But now I’m paying the price
Never did drugs and not a drinker Yet still portrayed the life

I destroyed my dreams, while trying to help others, and only hurt myself
Not medicated by choice and living check to check I learn to play the game

Head on tight and ready to fight Without the move to make
I sleep each night knowing myself and knowing what all I could offer

Hoping one day I get the opportunity to be who I know to be
Intellectual, successful, ambitious, and beautiful I hope this is who you see

I had lost my meaning and now it is found Yet still in search for the place for me

TYRA- THIS POEM IS WRITTEN BY ME AND IT EXPLAINS MORE ABOUT MYSELF THAN I COULD EVER TYPE IN A LETTER. I HAVE NEVER POSTED A POEM ON THE INTERNET SO I APOLOGIZE FOR THE STRUCTURE, LOL! ANY HOW I AM 19 AND WATCH YOUR SHOW OFTEN, ALTHOUGH AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL IS THE SHIOT! I DON'T REMEMBER ALL NAMES OR ANYTHING, BUT IVE OBVIOUSLY HAD ALLOT GOING ON IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I AM A PART TIME MODEL FOR TONIE'S INTERNATIONAL MODELS IN THE S.T.L, I ALSO WORK AT MARQUART'S LANDING IN WASHINGTON MO. AS A WAITRESS, AND WATCH DAYCARE KIDS AT MY AUNTS DAYCARE THIRTY HOURS A WEEK. I HAVE REALLY BEEN DOING GOOD AND FEEL GREAT ABOUT LIFE, BUT I REALLY NEED SOME DOORS TO OPEN UP FOR ME. IM NOT SCARED OF DEDICATION OR MANUAL LABOR, I JUST NEED STABILITY AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET IT FOR MYSELF. I'M ALSO EXTREMELY INDEPENDENT AND HATE ASKING FOR HELP, BUT I FEEL THIS IS THE ONLY OPTION I HAVE AS OF NOW. Regardless, I love to see how successful you have become and I will always look up to the woman you are today! Thank you for everything Tyra

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Hello Tyra! I just want to start of by saying that you are an amazing person in what you do! I mean helping all of these people get through some of the things that they may be going through just blows me away. Okay so here is my "friend" story... My kinda ex-best friend had been friends since before kindergardern and we done EVERYTHING together!! We were able to tell each other jokes,secrets, and whenever we said or done something that we didn't mean to we forgave each other. Well it all started when I was in the 4th grade and I was seperated from her because my class was different. (We had always had the same classes since kindergarden.) So it had been a couple of days and I had made a few new friends. So one day in lunch I saw her sitting with another girl, she looked familiar but i couldn't place who it was. I turned to the girl beside of me and asked her who that was, and to my surprise she said it was one of my old friends from 1st grade.The girl also said that the "new" girl had transfered from her old school and was going to take my best friend away from me!! (AND WE WERE IN 4th GRADE!) I could not believe that she had a sick enough mind to do something like that to her and I.So I talked to my friend at recess that same day and told her what my other friend told me. She couldn't believe it either and we made a promise that we will always be friends no matter who or what came in our way! So a year pasted and all three of us are in the 5th grade...it seemed like things started getting worse with the girl. The "evil" girl would invite both of us over to her house and we'd ride 4-wheelers. Well she'd ask one of us to ride with her and while she was on there she would talk "smack" about the other person. Which would either about be me or when I rode on there with her. She would tell me stuff that I KNOW where not true at all. But I just took it and she told me to promise to her not to tell the other friend but I lied cause I didn't keep that promise. Because we told each other EVERYTHING that she had said. It made both of us feel like crap and we couldn't believe that she had turned into some sort of monster!So then her and I asked one of our favorite teachers what we should do and she gave us the advice to tell her that we don't appreciate how she is making up lies about us trying to ruin our friendship. So we did...just not in those words. Now 5 years later that same girl who tried to break up our friendship...I guess that I could say I am more friends with her than my "best" friend. We have hardly any classes with each other unlike we use to. She does her own things and I do my own things. So now she has this one friend that has kind of ruined her. She has "made" her something that she is not. Her friend has made her into a person who thinks that they are better than everyine else just because they are dating a basketball player or are a basketball player. It just makes me really sad how things have turned out over the years. Because I have always thought what things would be like if we were still as good friends as we use to be. But sometimes I forget about it cause now I have found me a friend just like her, we can tell each other stuff like I could with my old friend. And although I've only known her for a year and a half it seems like it has been forever! I am so glad that I saw this blog so I could get all of this out! Thanks so much Tyra for everything that you have done for everyone! Keep up the good work. And remember "Never let anyone get in your way of you & your friends friendship no matter who or what it is."
-Hailie

First of all, Tyra, may God bless you for every good you have done. You're a really strong woman and I really admire that. Going through hard stuff and still standing strong....that's why you're my role model. Well, my story is that my "best friend" of 4 yrs. broke up with her boyfriend and she didn't want me to talk to him. His ex and I were really good friends, so it was hard for me not to speak to him. At first I didn't because that would be unethical of me, but then months passed and I thought that my best friend was over it. Well, me and her ex talked and i would tell her everything we talked about, but this one day me and him went to my friends soccer game. Lucky me, my best friends comes too, but with her best friend. she got mad....duh...but still acted like my best friend. Later, she started spreading rumors that I was kissing him and that me and ex were going out. I decided not to speak to her ever again and that's how things are right now. Funny thing is that like two weeks later after the whole drama, she came to apologize but I still wasn't ready. so, she started saying more stuff about me. It's sad that two best friends fought over something stupid, and all because we assumed things. Yup tyra, this is my case, I miss her at times, but then I also feel free. Feels good letting it out, thanks for everything you've done Tyra!!!

love, Stephanie(CA.-18yrs.)

I think is great to have good friends but we don't own them. If there are two friends atracted to the same guy and he decides to go for the one he really likes, there should not be a problem because he has the right to make his own decisions. It is wrong to tell a person, "oh, don't look at that one, it is mine"

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Hey Tyra,
First of all your show is amazing. I absolutely admire you for everything from your part in coyote ugly to all the help you give women across the world.
Im 20 years old and i live in a small town where everybody knows everybody's business. I did a few things while i was in high school that im not too proud of myself for but at the time they seemed justified.
I graduated 2 years ago and i was still seeing my high school sweetheart up until september of last year. Even though he had a new girlfriend that didnt stop him from calling me so you can imagine the history we had.
Recently there was a fake myspace made in mockery of myself degrading my family, my friends and myself. i know who did it but i cant prove it and it really gets to me that after all that time someone can hold a grudge and do such a horrible thing.
They put things on there that are very hurtful and sent it to everybody on my friends list. As you can imagine I'm very broken up about it and my boyfriend wants to retaliate physically on the person responsible. I dont know what to do. Do i call the police for defamation of character or slander or do i let my boyfriend do what he seems fit?
I'd really appreciate it if you could answer any of my questions to help me and other girls like me who hve been thru something similar.

Thank you so much for being the person you are!

sincerely,
richelle

Well, I have had my share of so-called friends but I think this time I got hurt the most. I am down to one friend because the ugly two-faced monster took over the other one's minds.
But the good thing is that I realized that one best friend, a very important boyfriend and God is all that I need in my life. If it is meant to be that way then it will be just that and I will someday get my crown of gold.

God Bless and Much love to everyone.
Love,
KayLa

Hi Tyra

Well my so called friend...wow! I met my ex husband thru her and she was always around. She had a few problems where she was living so I invited her into our home. I was pregnant at the time. When my son was a week old I went to my mother..first time mom. Well while I was gone she slept with my ex-husband. I was hurt #1 he was my husband #2 my son was a week old and #3 friends dont do that. I later found out that they were getting high off of crystal meth (which was a big probelm between my husband and I...he was tryin to quit). So I felt like the good that I did to help her was reversed and she was very ungrateful. I never spoke to her again. I am now divorced and very happy. But it was a learning experience. Follow your gut feeling always.

I had a "best friend" if you can call her that anymore. If it seems that I sound bitter, guess again; i'm more hurt than bitter. Let me first say, it was NEVER about a guy it was about the known rules between girls. Okay, so let me begin telling you the tale of a "best friend" gone WRONG.

She was a great friend, we were there for each other for the great times and a lot of the bad. I was there for her when she had to deal with a terrible ex-boyfriend and she helped me when I was at my lowest moment and considered suicide, but she just dropped me without even saying why. During our friendship I always felt that she was trying to buy my friendship, what kind of person does that? Then I figured it out, the guilty kind of person.

It all started when I was talking to this guy that I didn't even know. He was just an email buddy that meant nothing to me. Of course I found him attractive, but who cares. When we decided to meet, I wanted her to be there in case he was an axe murderer. She said she would and we met him at the local coffee house. At first it was okay, she stayed on the side and just read a book. It started to get weird when we all went out to eat. It may seem that I should have saved that for another time, but he was leaving and we were all hungry. We went out to eat and from previous nights out I said I was uncomfortable with her drinking because she acts differend, plus the fact that she was my D.D. and she always ends up drunk. Needless to say, she ended up drinking and acting a fool. But even before that, me and this guy were talking and all the sudden she says "i'm cold" and sits in between me and this guy. What kind of friend does that? I would never block my friends game, but I guess that's just the way I act. Anywho, she got more buzzed and got out of her seat and started giving him a back rub. What the "F" is that? I asked her, "what are you doing?" She said nothing and told me I looked nice this evening. Okay, that was odd. Because she was drunk like usual when we go out and I wasn't able to drive, the guy took it upon himself to drive us to his house. Sounds fishy, doesn't it? When we were at his house, she goes right to his bedroom and lays on his bed. In my view, only prostitutes and straight up skanky girls do that. I noticed that he was paying attention to her more and so when he left I told her, "he probably likes you." What did this skank say..."You don't know that, he's talking to you too." Ugh, okay hooker. It all fell to crap when she gave him her number and I was in the room. This is the girl that EVERYONE talks about because of how dirty she is, but I saw someone different and had her back. Boy, was I wrong and got stabbed to prove it. The guy was leaving for some show he is trying to start, and we all said bye.

Don't think the story is over because something horribly strange happened, I told her that I didn't care if she wanted anyone else but just don't touch that one. I even had a dream that night that she swooped him up and text her, "please not that one." Isn't that weird? It's like I knew what was going to happen.

A while had passed and my friend was not answering my calls or calling me back. One night, out of the blue she finally called me and wanted to go do my favorite thing in the whole world...the batting cages. She took me out to dinner and then to the cages, but on the way home she said she wanted to tell me something. I said to just tell me, because not saying "I want to tell you something, but you might get mad" makes me curious and a bit angry already. The little conversation went like this:

Her: Do you remember that guy?
Me: Huh? What guy?
Her: You know the one that we met at the coffee shop.
ME: Oh yeah. What about him?
Her: Well, he's been calling me.

Okay, hold up. Already she tries to put blame on someone else but herself. You have a choice and I guess that meant to hurt your friend and pick up the call and keep talking to some guy instead of considering how your "best friend" would feel. So she goes on telling me that he basically calls her all the time and they talk. I had it, I told her not to touch that one. I don't even really care, it was just the fact she couldn't even own up to this whole situation. It wasn't about the guy, it was the fact I had to tell someone who is my "best friend" not to touch that guy. I gave a warning that I knew she would break. If she really liked him, she should have come to me a long time ago. Instead she hid it and blamed him for calling her.

She always had a way of making me feel like the ugly, fat one that nobody will want. She always has to keep reminding me and any guy that is talking to me that she is SO small. Yeah, I was jealous...but what kind of friend makes you feel bad about yourself? So, she dropped me off at home and I just cried. I cried because this is the girl that was my "best friend", we said we love each other and would never hurt one another. What a crock of crap! In the end she's with that guy and has yet to say she is sorry for hurting me. She couldn't even get the balls up to call me after that day, just to talk to me. Our friendship meant nothing and this new guy means everything. If I hurt my "best friend" I wouldn't just leave her hanging and crying for weeks. I would have called her, or even showed up at her house to tell her how much I was sorry...but wait a minute, thats the way I would deal with things. The way she treated me and just dropped me without a good-bye or sorry, that shows me I meant nothing to her. I read in a blog of hers and she blames me for making her sad. She basically said that I was a crappy friend and put too much of my depression on her. I may have spoken about my things with her, but she can never say I wasn't there for her too. I even told her, "If I make you feel sad, TELL ME." Instead she just kept me in the dark and kept making me feel worthless. I am hurt and angry, but part of me still misses the girl that I was friends with.

So, readers of this story...you don't have to tell me anything. You can think what you want of me, but at least I got my story out. This "thing" that happened has but me in the bad light because all the mutual friends I had with her, basically dumped me too. I learned that I can't trust anyone and to keep my mouth shut. It seems harsh and I do have a lot inside, but how would you feel if the person you trusted for so long throws it in your face that you are crazy and the reason for making her life a wreck. I hope that none of you will ever feel the pain of losing your self-worth, self-respect, confidence, and your "best friend". I let her do that to me, I let her rip me apart and make me feel guilty. What do I think of her now? As one of my friends said, "she's dead in my eyes" and I hope that she has something like this happen to her. People talk about karma, but I have yet to see things happen to the people that have hurt me. So, I do what all burned people do...deal with it, move on, and start a happy life. Because the one thing that hurts the hurter is when you don't let them get to you and live a happy life.

Too bad that Tyra is moving to N.Y.C., I would have loved to meet her or talk to her. I have mad respect for someone that doesn't let any hurt show and walks tall and proud. I hope to be like that one day, until then I show them no fear and live life. Only behind closed doors do I let my true emotions show.

I met my ex best friend my freshman year in high school. We were unseperatable, we went everywhere together and she was the one person I KNEW I could trust.. She would do anything for me whether it came to sticking up for me, helping me with my problems, or just go shopping with me. She was someone I could truly call my best friend.
In the middle of our junior year a bunch of drama happened with this guy and her family and she had to move to tennessee. I was devastated, but we still stayed being best friends...
My senior year her and her new boyfriend came to visit me and it was great, she even suprised me by coming and spending the weekend with me when I graduated from high school. I was so happy she was my best friend and was still here for me. Not too long after I graduated I went down to tennessee (where she lived) and spent a week with her. I talked her into coming back down to Alabama (where i lived) with me to go to one of our friends 18th birthday party.. she came.. and she ended up meeting back up with one of her ex boyfriends..everything went downhill from there.. to make a long story short, she left me for that boy. I think its so wrong because I thought you were supposed to choose your friends (at least your best friends) over your boyfriend.. But that didn't happen. She tried blaming everything on me saying that it was my fault we're not friends anymore but she's the one who chose him over me. People have told me she still wants to be my friend..but she really hurt me.. I dont know what to do...

i used to have two best friends. one while i was in high school and one i met after i had graduated and moved to rochester. the one from high school got so involved with her boyfriends she made NO TIME for anyone else, except her boyfriend's friend's. so i talked to her about it and she blew me off. then my other best friend i had, was very jealous. But i didn't find this out until after i had spilled everything out to her, then when i broke up with my ex-boyfriend, she took my past and everything i had told her and threw it in my face. spead it all around plus more that wasn't even close to the truth! she made up rumors and tried really hard to ruin what i had bulit there in rochester. so i told her off then cut her off and she couldn't understand why i didn't wanna be friends with her anymore and tried telling me that she did all that because i wasn't paying enough attention to her, and because she was jealous of my relationship with my ex. but i told her it was WAY to late! and she had just proven to me what kind of person she REALLY was, and that was the end.
and ever sense then i've stood my ground and haven't talked to her even after she's tried hard. but I'm not going to let someone like that into my life again!

hey tyra
the thing is that the bad friend in this case is me i stopped talking to my best friend because i didnt like her boyfriend because he talked about her behind her back and when they were together he was a different person.and also he broke up with her about 4 times and when he wanted to get back together he just said he didnt mean to break up and she always bought it he also made her stop wearing make-up and didnt let her talk with any of our friends because he said she didnt need us cuz she had him now.well i told her to open her eyes and to see that he was just playing with her and she said that it was OK that she loved him and that it didnt matter so since then our friendship wasnt the same because she was a completely different person.
right now they been together for almost 3 years
and we havent talked for a year now she has tried to talk to me but i just dont have anything to say to her
i just feel really bad that she doesnt see whats happened to her and i really miss her but once i have her in front of me all can think about is him and how shes changed and it just hurts me so much.and i do want to get our friendship back but its not
as easy as it sounds.tyra should i give up on her completely or should i keep looking for my best friend that i know is still in there?

I have a "friend" called margaret. WE always have fights, even if its not my fault, i know the value of a friendship and always beg for forgiveness. I'm there when she's feeling sad, and we share our innermost secrets. But when she's with her older sis and her friends, i'm totally ignored and i have the feeling she is doing it on purpose. She has lied to me about so many stuff, but i never made a big deal out of them, but why she hurts me on purpose....i don't know. I feel really hurt by these things. She doesn't know her actions really do hurt me cuz i act all hard core. She acts like this tough bully but i'm not intimidated by her, many people are however. I don't see whats on the outside, i see whats on the inside. I try not to judge people. It just hurts me to know this friendship cannot be salvaged with the direction its going in and i really hate that. Margaret if you ever read this, i'm sorry, but you know what you did to me was wrong, i have forgiven you, as always, but i cant taker this anymore, and if you do this to me again, i'm sorry, but we can no longer be friends. Why would a friend want to hurt another human being the way you did to me at that party? You always brag about how bad you are and how *itchy you are, and now i'm starting to see it. If you ever do the same thing you did to me in the party to any other human being, BURN IN HELL. I TRULY believe you are th DEVIL!!!!

Hey tyra

I'm heartbroken. I come from klenya and live in the U.S> cuz my mother is an international lawyer and we have to move with her. I just graduated the 8th grade and my best friend for 3 years had a fight. It was a dumb fight. In my school library, we are assigned seats. Me and my other friends were put in the front and ericka, my bff, was put in the back. I was passing notes with my other friends and she felt left out so she stopped talking to me. I apologized a gazzillion times. I told her all my secrets, but i wasnt worried cuz we've had many fights before but we always made up. However, this time it was different. She made up rumours about me and all my other friends believed them. I was still willing to forgive ericka, she was my bff, i loved her like a sis. My parent even treated her like flesh and blood, but things were never the same. I called her every day to apologize, but she didnt listen. I was so sad and angry at the same time. It felt like someone i knew and tryusted for years just died. We are still talking but things are never the same. We are about to move to another country and i wish we had stayed friends so that we could still keep in touch. WE swore no matter what fight we had we would be bffs 4ever, but i guess no matter how sorry ui am, i would never have traded the past 3 years for anything. I value those years like i value my own life. Ericka, if yopu ever read this, i'm sorry and goodbye...

Heyy tyra i LOVEEEE ur show i try to watch as much as i can the funny thing is i always see the camercials for the next show an di have this paper FILLED with notes saying watch tyra monday at 11:00 like for 2 weeks straight hee hee anyways ilu and i loved my best friend but she turned on me wen another gurl moved in next door. i was her only friend and wen she was with another friend she would hate me and i hated her SOOO much but i learned to forgive her but then she was saying mean things to me so i havent forgived her sence! also im still trying to look for tht page were i tlk to u ?? also i saw the show were people were calling u fat and tyra ur NOT fat ur verry skinny in a good way! im glad ur a modle who cares and tht americans next top wabble was verry mean !! anywho i look up to u as an idol u inspire me u make me feel alot more happy about myself because every day of school wen i took the bus home from school ppl would say i am fat and like sence im small they say go eat a big mac u fat miget and i dont even like mc donalds and it rly hurts my feelings and im happy tht the kids who said it graduated but yes bye

First I want to say that I really love your show and I think you are a great role model and have a very positive message. That is very much appreciated in today's society. Well, here goes; I met my best friend in first grade and we became inseperable. We would walk to each others house and do everything possible. He was a boy so I couldn't spend the night or anything but it was okay because we had the days, school and hour long bus rides. Anyway, when we started middle school he started really noticing girls and I got a little jealous. It wasn't horrible until high school when we really started to grow apart. He was my only guy friend and the only guy that gave me attention outside of my family. To this day I've never had a boyfriend. Anyway, the summer before our Junior year in High School, I was going to move so I thought I would give him a piece of my mind, move and be done with him. I started to tell people that I thought he was annoying and that I didn't want to be his friend anymore. I was hurt and later realized that I loved him as many friendships go between girls and guys. Then I moved 1500 miles away. Well, we ended up moving back a couple of months later for financial reasons. He didn't really go to church anymore and had started going to Running Start at the local college so he wasn't at school either. I felt horrible. I wrote him letters and tried to call and apologize but we've never talked about it. I've seen him a couple of times and had the usual small talk but I moved again from WA to AZ before senior year. He doesn't respond to my apologies or attempts to mend maybe some of our friendship but he does have me as a "friend" on myspace so... I learned a huge lesson from my stupid mistake but I just wish he would talk to me so I know how he feels (well, probably awful). He was the best friend I've ever had and I miss him so much and I just want to hear his voice again and know that he's ok. He also
"came out of the closet" when I moved the first time and I was devastated. I hadn't been there to talk him through it even though I knew that it wasn't true (don't ask, it's just not. He is such a ladies man and he knows it :) and recently, three years later, is saying that he is bisexual. I just want to be there for him and let him know that I still love him. I was always the one that supported him when even his family wasn't there for him and I let him down. I think about him every day and how much I screwed up and how much I miss him. It's been almost four years since I have really talked to him and I don't think I can move away from that until I hear from him. I've never really told anyone that story in it's entirety and I haven't really replaced his best friend status because he has a special place in my heart. Anyway, thanks for listening. :)

Hey, I just graduated from high school and I have had the same friends since elementary schoool. Well, in 10th grade I became sick with anorexia and my friends abandoned me. Then, they came back when I wasn't so gaunt and I confronted one of my old best friends on why she left me and she told me that she didn't know how to deal with me being sick. After that, things went back to relatively normal until this summer. A group of me and 4 other girls always hung out until in a matter of a month, they forgot about me, didn't care and disrespected me 3 times. First, we went to stand in line at harry potter 7 for 6 hours and when my other friend and I went and got a drink, they FORGOT about us and got a book without us and left us to wait by ourself and didn't even appologize. Then, they planned a 2-day camping trip and neglected to tell me about it! THEN, i found out that they did something together (that we ALWAYS did together) without me because I was on vacation and didn't tell me until it slipped out accidently. When I confronted them on this stuff, they didn't even acknowledge my feelings! ugh I don't understand why after 10 years my "friends" don't even consider or care about me.